antivalentine

Poetry

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(your problem <lights cigarette>

just one

(your problem is that you don’t 
even believe in redemption

there’re some things I’d like to redeem

(like dinosaurs. You think dinosaurs are still there eating each other

they are still eating each other!

(mm k <exhalation>

it’s just way way back

<which commits you to there being no redemption

maybe you’d need time travel for that and I doubt it could be accomplished. wait do you have the lighter

(to redeem the dinosaurs? <produces light pockets lighter>

I mean yeah I can imagine what it means to say travel back that far it’s simply travel but traveling those speeds according to those forces is not something we can ever do <exhalation>

(you say travel I say there’s nowhere to go no dinosaurs to see

you don’t reject str.

(not insofar as it’s true <exhalation>

65 million years it’s just a region of spacetime

(it’s a past region of spacetime yup and you can don’t even start

<laughs>are dinosaurs still eating each other if no one’s there to see

(the past is gone. history. toast <exhalation>

from the vantage of your light cone

<light cones?

thy lovely invariance <exhalation>

(past regions of spacetime are gone and the dinosaurs with them. Hence the need for redemption

which amounts to a rejection of str

(which is what I said. insofar <lights cigarette>

spacetime locations relativized and homogeneous you get dinosaurs with that <leans closer>

(<produces light pockets lighter>

even if they’re way way back

(and which commits you to way way forward <exhalation>

the future

(dinosaurs exist martian outposts exist cabbages and kings and sealing waxes you fucken whore 

one of us has got to be <exhalation>

(spacetime fusion of my every frustration

I am happy to help you sort that out

(you do believe in redemption <exhalation>

I believe in the things that there are and fusions of those

(you believe in regret and not redemption

hm that seems maybe about right

(pussy <exhalation>

I am all in committed to that yes <exhalation>

(you don’t get one without the other

I can’t have pussy and no regrets?

(you can’t have regret and no redemption

you may be right about that too

(your fatalism is a bust as much as these light cones <exhalation> fucken whore

regret is a strange thing, as many-splendored as redemption

(you’d have even time travel and do every wrong thing with it. Like any of us would <exhalation>

it wasn’t me, I know I regret that. If it’d been me I would’ve held your hand in the hospital and it’d’ve been our babies born

(you would time travel back to things that aren’t even there and refuse the whole time to call it redemption

that’s the regret. Those things aren’t there

(we didn’t fuck my hand wasn’t there and you would wander god’s whole earth looking for things that aren’t there and still not see it was redemption

our love is easy <exhalation>

(fucken whore <lights cigarette>